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My husband got tired so I started writing.  I got married late in life at 35 years young.  I was happy to have a couple of years without a baby.  I thought I had everything planned and then there was year 1.  One day my husband woke up and asked me why were weren’t pregnant yet.   We never used birth control and somehow it never crossed my mind.   I wasn’t really worried because I wanted to travel internationally.  But I did go to the doctor and she discovered a grapefruit in my womb:  Called a fibroid.  As a black woman, these are common so I got it removed.  Then there was year 2.  About halfway through year 2, we visited the dreaded fertility clinic.   So here  our Fertility treatments begin after 2.5 years of  marriage.   Now we are going on 4 years old and still no baby.  I am getting emotionally tired of the ups and downs.  I did get pregnant once through Iui but I had a miscarriage.  There is still hope.  My husband and I are healthy and we did get that big international trip that we dreamed of…We traveled through the Orient for 3 weeks.  Now I am on my second IVF cycle. After tears and much prayer we are pressing on.  My husband has been my biggest cheerleader and support.  He hears my late night tears and holds my hand when I words can’t fill my aching heart.  I am happy to share this journey, it makes me feel like I am not alone and that there are others who understand this struggle.  I hope you will read this, comment, and share your stories.  Yolanda Spearman